Teenie: Keep the things you forgot.
Jul 4th, 2010 5:14 am

::The recorder clicks on.::

It's selfish of me to worry about my family. We're not..particularly close, but still. We're safe for now, but we won't be forever. People believe me when I say I'm an oracle, it's weird. But, I won't be useful forever and I will die, my family will hurt and suffer.

I need to be strong now, but it get's so easy, thinkin' about the sun, it's calming. I keep telling myself, one more night, but the dreams keep comin', the wisps keep walkin' through my apartment and I'm just gettin' more and more torn up.

When all this is over..I dunno'. I gotta' protect my family, protect Lev. Have to make sure he's standin' at the end, even if I'm not. I hope I'm not. I don't wanna' know what I'll look and be like after all this. Putting the pieces together is ruinin' me.

I never thought anything would ever feel worse than the guilt I felt about Suzy, but this...this is fuckin' wildly bad.

Maybe after readin' that girl, they won't need you anymore, Teenie. Maybe they'll just kill you and be done with it and you can be free, or maybe..you'll find the courage to do it yourself.

Who knows?

::The recorder clicks off.