Silence.
Jun 30th, 2010 7:54 am

How can I protect those I cannot even see?

I keep leaving the messages, but I don't know if he even gets them anymore. I can't count how many times I have called and got directed to the voice mail.

I'm more and more afraid on his behalf. There is less room for myself in my head. Just need and worry and unpleasant feelings.

I have never feared anything this much. Before him, I maybe have never even feared at all. It's a void inside me.

Sometimes I think he might be already gone... would I even know?

It's desperation.